NIGHTMARES AGAIN

I keep having this recurring nightmare. I’m picking up my things from Matthew’s house, and my mobile phone rings, and it’s my sister, Natalie, calling to tell me that Leslie has killed herself, and I need to fly to Boston to help sort things out. I hang up the telephone and ask Matthew if I can use his computer to book an airline flight. He tells me no, that I need to leave his apartment, because Colleen is coming over. I say, "but I asked you to be alone when I came over to pick up my things," and he says, "but Colleen wants to come over, and it would have hurt her feelings to have said no."

I wake up crying.